I have a little problem.
Sometimes I am unable to comprehend anything.
Friday, March 24th, I could see people talking to me, but I couldn't understand a thing. All day.
I reverted to my usual smile and nod while people were talking, and my friend Tamara shook me by my shoulders and asked me if I heard her. I find myself doing this a lot. I don't like to do it, and it is very frustrating to me.
I think some synapse in my brain just shuts off my ability to comprehend simple speech. Why? I don't know. I've called it nerve-deafness, but I can hear noise it's not like my ears shut off. I am aware of the conversation and the other noises in the room, just no comprehension.
It feels like frustration and confusion rolled up into one. I feel like I've backed up a few inches behind my eyes and I can't come back out.
The 23rd was the third anniversary of my mother's suicide. I don't think that bothers me. After work I went to a gymnastics showing for Kandelyn. I enjoyed watching the girls show their new skills. I just didn't enjoy people trying to hold a conversation with me. I came, I saw, I left as soon as was appropriate.
I was conscious of my problem, and tried to focus and pay attention and correct my malfunction, but I couldn't. It's a terrible feeling. I don't like it and I need to fix it.
Any ideas?
MsAmber
Bad Poetry?
- MsAmber
- I am complex, yet simple. I am hearty and frail. I am selfish and generous. I let my emotions prevail. I want to make some sense of it. Of Life, and Love, and God. I want to bring back the simple things. I know that makes me odd. But if you'll stay and read awhile maybe you'll start to see. Then maybe I can share with you a little part of me. MsAmber
5 comments:
Sounds to me like you're tired. Maybe your mind's shutting out the radio gaga and trying to tell you to make good use of any vacation days you've got coming.
If this "nerve-deafness" persists, you should consult a doctor (I think you mentioned in an earlier post that you had some ear problems?) It might be psychological because of your mom's tragic anniversary, but you have to rule out all the physical problems first.
Sending good vibes your way! Be well.
:-)
zardoz says:
WHADDIDYASAY..?
YOU NEED REST KID
LET THE DUST SETTLE
AND THEN COME OUT AGAIN
TAKE ACOUPLE OF WEEKS
OFF , FROM THE BLOGGING
STUFF , FOR INSTANCE.
TO SETTLE DOWN
GET PIECE OF MIND.
FILL BATTERIES.
ITS MY THOUGHT,,,,
== z ==
The word you might want to check out is
aphasia
I'm with flubberwinkle on this.
Aphasia. Boy, it's a good thing I'm not a hypochondriac. Can you see me going to my Dr. and saying: "I think I have Aphasia." Especially after the concussion I had a few years back.
I scheduled my vacation for April 13th through 20th.
The boss was more than happy to have me do it.
MsAmber
That's never happened to me before, though I do space out from time to time. My only advice is unoriginal: If it persists, see a doctor. If it still persists, see a specialist. Good night and good luck.
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